what's not to love

Yes, I am obsessed with my plush toys now. And I just kind of had a bad day today with my parents being cranky and weird. I have so much to say about everyone wish I was mute or something, and I need Marius alot now but someone/something is being damn cruel and we can't see each other for this while. It will blow over soon. I made a few cards last night, envied my dog shitting this morning, looked through photos that I'm going to print and realised I do look damn happy now, trying to lose weight the right way, enjoying my weekly madness at zoo, thinking of the end of internship, the beginning of a new path in my life, told dad Marius is my boyfriend during dinner last night, being a wrapped popiah now, trying to get drunk on marigold vegetable yoghurt drink, seeing two super beloved friends fy and ws putting themselves as profile pictures on fb, deleting about 40 people in a tiny mad rage, feeling the numbness in my arms and legs, the fucking full bag of shit in my body yes im having some can't shit problems, thinking of meditating every night cause I read somewhere online that our singapore respected lky meditates 20 minutes every night and I sincerely want to cultivate some goodness in my soul, feeling quite lost for awhile not knowing where have some of my old habits gone like playing the piano, reading books that I can't put down, piercing myself, doing research on what tattoos to get next, going out and swearing like mad with friends, going places to explore, wearing clothes that makes me feel good about myself, and stuffs like that.

I just want to keep typing to kill time and I am not allowed to backspace what I want to think now, minor mistakes is fine. Fine, hi so I'm going to talk about zoo work today. The zoo is undergoing renovations...

Marius is here! BYE :D