what's not to love

Mom got us new kicks. And that's my baby posing with his super panda warm cap. :)

His dad is very eggcited right now, working on surprises. He fills my life with surprises.

All about school.

Our lecturer speaks very professionally and really maybe do try hard to get us to see what she means but I can't help feeling very down. And the main thing is, I feel very lousy and stupid after consultations.

I hope I will get over this negative mood, and learn to appreciate the advice given. I am willing to take the advice now, and I do try to listen and focus my reception skills to the best that I can but it ain't making me feel good about my works and the effort I sincerely put in.

Not all is bad. A few factors that I think is saving me now, is my ability to bullshit and willingness to work. Keeping my fingers crossed and hope to find something that rocks her boat. Soon.

I have really damn nice classmates that I admire alot. People who work hard and have passion, who I wish!!!!!! I can have just half their drive. I feel like a guppy in a tankful of goldfishes in class. Female guppy, the not colourful one. This guppy feels guilty for things she ever said and it is haunting her now how people will be judging her. But oh wait, judging... it isn't up to us.

Yeah, so my classmates are really nice people as they try to talk to me sometimes and when I ask for help, rarely get turned down but you can't deny that I really don't belong anywhere in class. I am going to speak out my mind for once, I DO MIND. I MIND I MIND I MIND. But I REALLY DON'T EXPECT. Don't expect my classmates to try to let me feel like I'm part of the class. I won't want to expect. I feel peaceful and contented, doing work alone too. Sometimes, I feel ;'( when I get home and think about this. Maybe like now.

Missing one week of school in Block 8. Dangeroussssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

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